Monday, April 25, 2016

I'm Bipolar

Been feeling worn out, lately.  Well, really, I've been feeling worn out for some years now but these recent times have just been *extra* tedious.  I think some of the issue is that I am bipolar.  Let's look at some symptoms of bipolar and see where we go from there, okay?
"Abnormal behavior during manic episodes includes:

  • Flying suddenly from one idea to the next
  • Rapid, "pressured" (uninterruptable), and loud speech
  • Increased energy, with hyperactivity and a decreased need for sleep
  • Inflated self-image
  • Excessive spending
  • Hypersexuality

People in manic episodes may spend money far beyond their means, have sex with people they wouldn't otherwise, or pursue grandiose, unrealistic plans. In severe manic episodes, a person loses touch with reality. They may become delusional and behave bizarrely.
Untreated, an episode of mania can last anywhere from a few days to several months. Most commonly, symptoms continue for a few weeks to a few months. Depression may follow shortly after, or not appear for weeks or months."
Yeesh.  I'd be worried if I didn't feel that much of this fits right into the American psyche.  Who isn't energetic, egotistical, horny, and spending their money on drugs? Sounds like a fucking party. (FYI: I've been just doing weed for years now, and what's prescribed by doctors) Then there's the other half: 

"Depressive episodes in bipolar disorder are similar to "regular" clinical depression, with depressed mood, loss of pleasure, low energy and activity, feelings of guilt or worthlessness, and thoughts of suicide. Depressive symptoms of bipolar disorder can last weeks or months, but rarely longer than one year."
I know what you might be thinking, "Anthony, why aren't you trying better to sell yourself? Aren't you kind of lonely?", and I agree but I've realized that I accept being bipolar and so does anyone who hopes to have a relationship with me, so I might as well be up front about it.  I'm being treated for it, anyway.  :)